NEWTON RULE

I overestimate my friendship with several persons. I thought we have strong foundation that won’t make us fall apart over small matters.
Looking back, I had 2 close friends. Friends that support each other. Friends that forgive and understand. I put up with their ego, habit and attitude. I forgave them when they broke their promise, late in rendezvous, cancel our plan… like friends do.
But once I turned them down, over a misunderstanding situation, I became the enemy of the humankind! As if I caused the fatal mistakes. And it wasn’t even my mistakes! At least not completely.
They became uhhmmm… not friendly anymore.
Geezzz, I thought we’re friends!
Sarah said, I sacrificed a lot in friendship. I gave tolerance so much that I actually couldn’t stand it inside. And they became used to my tolerance attitude that they don’t bother to take care of my feeling. Sarah also said that I expect too much from the friendship, from the sacrifice I made. That made me a bit uhhmmmm… unsincere? I hope I spell it correctly.
Well, what’s wrong with expectation. You do something, you hope something in return. That’s normal. That’s logical. That’s even scientific. You know… like Newton Rule : F action = F reaction.

27/04/04
I decided to drop by at CL to buy some snacks. Then I saw him.
He must have been having a date with someone, I can tell.
It shouldn’t bother me actually, I don’t even like him.
I mean, I am always nice to him but he’s not the kind of person I‘d like to spend the rest of my life with. He’s too plain, nerdy yet boastful (Man!).
But I thought he liked me. Owww..man, just yesterday he’s asking me out to attend his relatives wedding. I mean, it’s quite a big deal rite? It is an indication that a man wants you to meet his family.
Then I saw him having a date with someone.
It’s a first date, I can tell.
Why’s that bothering me? He’s free. I’m free. I met guys and had blind dates myself.
The problem is… I saw him. I feel betrayed. I thought he was DEVOTED to me. So this is how it feels to lose a fan. Or… even worse, this is how it feels when you thought you got a fan, but you didn’t.
Owww, man! That’s awful.

Saturday Blues
Thought that we could spend our boyfriend-less saturday night in a healthy way, me, sarah and nelly. Jogging, swimming... you know.. got shaped up.
We went to Senayan jogging track then to Sahid Hotel swimming pool. We exercised! Uhm..well, at least that would certainly what happened if it wasn't raining (we couldn't jog under the rain, rite?) and the free membership voucher was valid!
Sooo, we went to Plaza Indonesia. Got dinner. Heart-to-heart talk (you know.. girl stuff), cosmetics shopping, browse EX, walked to Sarinah, enter McD, then went home. Basically, just killing the time. And It killed my feet too...

I sore all over! Everytime I move my body, it goes "kretekkk kretekkk". *sigh*
That was a remarkable night, unforgettable Kartini's day.
I left the office at 19.00 after a waste wait for the rain to stop.
I went to my friend's house behind RS Tarakan. I thought I could use some shelter from the rain before going home. But until 21.30 it hadn't stopped. Taxi couldn't be found. So I called my brother to pick me up.

I heard flood has visited some areas : Grogol, Tj Duren, Kebon Jeruk, ROxi etc. My brother must have been struggled to find a way to my place. So I walked.

I mean it when I said 'walked' a.k.a by foot. I walked down da street from at 22.30 from Petojo to Tomang. I didn't take off my 5cm- heeled shoes. They were soaked! Banjir, maaan! Jakarta on Kartini's day was soaked! It was raining cats and dogs. The storm caused trees and tiang listrik scattered all over the street.
The street was like a giant parking lot. No use of waiting public transport. No use of waiting my brother to pick me up. He must be stucked somewhere.
So... walked. With my five-centimeters-heeled shoes. Did I mention that?
ughhhhhh... I sore all over. Did I mention that?

akhirnya aku bisa juga buat 'preliminary project diary online' ini.
masa aku tanya ke beberapa anak IT ga ada yang tauuu...
gimana siy? katanya IT.
untung ada si IdealMoron yang (reluctantly) ngasi tau aku caranya.
thanks, pal!