this feeling...

should I be relieved, or sad, or alert?
I just know something that i've known all along... only I refused to believe.
I do not know for sure how I close I 'relate' to this.. but I refuse to know.

I felt betrayed and fooled, but then who is to blame?
my self?
yup! definitely.

for being such a naive girl..
for letting someone play a hero for me..

this feeling..
is difficult for me to describe.