bisnis tu... ga kenal sodara

Sori kali ini agak serius.

Tanggal 4 agustus ini, tepat setahun papaku pergi. Satu hal tentang papa, dia ga terbuka tentang segala bisnisnya pada keluarga. Mungkin karena dia ga mau memusingkan kami. Jadi banyak hal ttg angkot misalnya yang kami ga tau. Yang kami tau, semua sekarang diurus adek papa. Tapi adek papa tu kayaknya ga terus terang dan nutup2in tentang semua hal. Padahal kita kan ahli warisnya…
Sikapnya itu membuat kita ga bisa nahan untuk berprasangka buruk. Seolah dia mau nguasain dan ambil alih semua. Dan memang kecenderungan itu dah keliatan sebulan sejak Papa meninggal. Tapi, ya tanah aja papa masih merah, kita ga mau ribut.
Ternyata semakin ke sini dia semakin ga bener. Belakangan ketauan kalo asset papa yang kini otomatis jatuh ke anak2-nya, udah dia agunin. Tanpa bilang kita. Boro-boro minta ijin. Bahkan dia sempet pindah rumah tanpa ngasi tau, telpon diganti, seperti ga mau kelacak. Coba tuh!
Lucunya, pas kita minta penjelasan dan pertanggungjawaban dia, dia malah mengaku bahwa asset itu semua adalah milik dia. Bahwa papa udah nyerahin itu semua ke dia. Parahnya lagi, dia emang megang semua surat-surat penting. Karena waktu papa masih ada, memang dia diserahin untuk ngurus masalah cicilan, setoran bank dll. But there’s no way papa handed over all to him. No way! Karena dua hari sebelum papa pergi, papa masih ngontrol dan minta setoran ke dia. Dan beberapa waktu sebelumnya, kita sekeluarga pernah ngebahas tentang itu. Papa tegasin kok kalo bisnis itu untuk biaya sekolah adek-adek.
Masa tau-tau itu jadi milik dia, hanya karena dia pegang smua suratnya? Lucunya dia bilang sama adek gue, kalo dia tetap akan bantu sekolah adek gue. Bantu? Man, those are ours! We don’t ask for pitty. We just want our right for God’s sake! Kok tega-teganya si dia? Ambil hartanya anak yatim bukannya dilarang agama? Mau ke kyai manapun, biar pengadilan akan berpihak pada dia, tep aja itu bukan hak dia. Ga akan berkah bukan rejekinya dan keluarga yang dihidupinya? Anyway, business emang ga kenal sodara ya?

kecoa

gue percaya setiap makhluk punya misi khusus di dunia ini.
paling ngga, pasti ada gunanya bagi makhluk lain.
manusia misalnya, misinya sebagai khalifah di dunia ini.
anjing misalnya, berguna sebagai teman manusia, menjaga manusia, mengusir kucing garong
kucing, menakuti tikus dan burung kenari (saaaah... twitty banget!)
tikus, walopun musuh petani tapi katanya buntutnya bisa jadi alternatif obat kanker.
dst... dst...

ada yang tau apa misi atau fungsi kecoa di dunia ini?

pertama, dia makhluk yang bentuknya menyeramkan.
lebih lagi, menjijikkan.
terus, dia tu suka nyosor. kalo kita coba menghindar, eh, dia malah nyamperin. blurggghhhhh!
trus dia suka iseng gitu terbang-terbang, ga ketauan mau mendarat dmn, bikin panik aja.
parahnya lagi,  kalo pas gelap-gelap kita ga ngeh, tau-tau . . . krekkkkkk!
badannya yang crunchy itu terasa di telapak kaki, garing-garing basah gitu dengan lendir yang croooottt aja keluar dari badannya. 

yup! disgusting!
*shiver*

tinggal gue aja yang abis itu melakukan tarian minta hujan orang indian, yang gue ga sadar pernah bisa, ditingkahi teriakan-teriakan histeris yang buat kaget seisi rumah.

apa itu misi kecoa di dunia ini?

agak ga terpuji si nurut gue. . .

Surpise Cake

Today is my mother's birthday.
I’ve been thinking to send her a cake.
A little surprise cake.
A chocolate mocha cream cake with chocolate mouse topping.
Slurrrppppp…
yummy!

I talked to my three brothers about my plan.
I talked to them separately, in whisper.
(ssshhhhh… it’s a secret. Mom’s supposed to know nothin’)
My brothers were all excited about the surprise plan, and about eating the cake, but not in SHARING the BILL.  Bluurrrrrrrggghhhh… brothers!
 
So we agreed in surprise cake project.
I ordered the cake from Dapur Coklat and asked them to deliver it at 19.00 (so everybody will be home already. And I will be home to take the bill).
 
Simple plan. 
  
  
Do you think anything could go wrong?
 
 
It’s not a big party.
It's just a cake we expect to come at 7 pm, then we slice it, and eat it.
Everybody’s happy.
 
 
Except. . .
 
 
The cake was delivered at 12.00 noon.
 
While I wasn’t home.
 
And my mother was home.
 
I couldn’t pay the bill.
 
So my mom paid the bill.
 
I complained to Dapur Coklat.
 
They were sorry.
 
But my mom has paid the bill.
 

 
So much for surprise cake!!! 
  
  
  
  
  
  
 

SAY NO TO SHOPPING

Sms received from a friend:

Ntar loe bisa cabut ga? Ke PS yuk…

Uhm… frankly I don’t feel like going. It’s a dangerous place.
It makes you blind by all the clothes, and shoes and sale.. and all the people who dressed up to the nine...
Really, it's a dangerous place.
It makes you go KALAP! (uhm... how do you say that.. Totally Uncontrollable?)
It’s my headquarter, though. Kantor Pusat.
That's the joke we say when we come there too often.

Last time I went there, I bought swim suit, t-shirt, tank top, earrings..
I know those will be at use someday!
Before that, I bought a blouse and bra.
I was sure those would be at use, too
someday…

Those happened quite a while, though.
While I was sooo much younger then...
(actually it was a week ago! But it is quite a while, I can assure you, considering I used to go there 2-3 times a week)

Anyway... today I don’t feel like going.
I don’t feel very well (I think I got symptoms of office sickness, you know, my back hurts, my shoulder hurts, my neck hurts… and I feel like having a good massage… creambath, perhaps?)
Beside, I have many personal things to do (like posting blogs, check friendster, apply job on-line, YM... and other small thing like washing and ironing my clothes...)
I also have to manage my cash flow. This sale season is really getting on my nerves. And I am quite helpless… *sigh*
And… (this is the most important part) I don’t dress appropriately to go there.

This is PS we’re talking about. A place to see and to be seen!
What if I meet the prospective people (for business, of course…for love too..) and he sees me not at my best?
What if I meet my ex boyfriend and he doesn’t see me at my best? Uuggghhhhhhh… no way! Or worse, what if I meet my ex boyfriend’s girlfriend and she sees me not at my best? Ah-ah! I can't manage to give her that pleasure!

The possibility is so scary.
*shiver*

In conclusion, I have many reasons not to go, don’t you think?
Now I made up my mind, it leaves only one problem:
How am I gonna tell my friend?

You see, I am having trouble saying no.
I hate disappointing people.
But, obviously I can’t tell her all the reasons I just tell you.
She’d think I am over-reacting.
And she would convince me that everything’s gonna be fine.
And I am quite helpless, remember?

Beside, my reasons would be too long for short message services.

So, instead I replied to her:
Ga. Gw ada rapat jam 5.

That seems smooth. Meeting at 5, continue with dinner at 7, finish at least at 8. Too late for shopping.
I just say no to shopping!

tanya jawab cinta

Tanyaku pada langit
Dimana sebenarnya cinta ada
Jawab langit kepadaku
Ada di dasar hatimu

Tanyaku pada mentari
Mengapa ada dusta dalam cinta
Jawab mentari kepadaku
Itu bukan cinta, sebab cinta itu kejujuran

Tanyaku pada siang
Mengapa cinta terkadang perih
Jawab siang kepadaku
Sebab kau tak pernah dapat memegang kendali cinta yang diluar
kehendakmu

Tanyaku pada daun
Mengapa airmata selalu mengiringi cinta
Jawab daun kepadaku
Airmata mengalir dari hati, tempat cinta bersanding dan ia akan terus disana

Tanyaku pada angin
Mengapa rindu dalam cinta sangat menyakitkan
Jawab angin kepadaku
Karena cinta mengisi jiwa dan hati bagai udara segar penuh wangi keindahan, dan ketika cinta menghilang nafas jiwamupun
tersengal mengibahnya

Tanyaku pada malam
Dapatkah cinta tinggal selamanya tanpa pernah pergi
Jawab malam kepadaku
Cinta tidak datang untuk pergi, namun cinta tidak datang untuk tinggal


(Jude)

what is it with man...?

what is it with man and his female best friend?
He said he cares for her, feels comfortable with her, doesn't mind to talk about almost anything w/ her, he even flirts w/ her, makes her feel flattered.
but..

he just wont make her his girl friend.
he wont date her.

ring a bell, girls?

ring a bell, guys?

He keeps complaining about his love life to his nice patient understanding female best friend.
How he must take her girlfriend and pick her up everywhere.
How he feels she manipulates his time.
How he feels his privacy invaded.

he goes on dating a demanding selfish spoiled baby possessif girl he keeps on complaining.

she (that nice patient understanding female friend) just has to be satisfied being a cheer-up buddy for a man she's been fond of.

what is it with man?

french

L'amour n'est pas 'parce-que'
mais 'malgre'. . .

The Past

I was wrong when I hurt you
Do you have to hurt me too?
Do you think revenge can make things better?
(The Past, Ray Parker Jr.)


fur p,
ca vait long temps.
je suis tres disolee, pardonne moi!

fur m,
J’ai fait tous parce que j’etais tres triste sans toi.
J’espere tu peux me pardonne.

s l o w m o t i o n

I bet you’ve experience this:
A chop of your life, that keeps playing on your mind.
On and on, in slow motion.
You didn’t know that on that few second, the hidden camera on your brain was in active mode.
You wouldn’t have thought, that your mind will replay that few second over and over.
But this time, in slow motion.

Years go by.
You still can picture that few second, still in slow motion.

Me, I have this kind of experience.
A few second of my life, freeze on my mind.
I still can view it, clearly.
The way he moved..
the way I turned my head..
the way wind played with his hair..
the way he forced a shy smile..
the way my heart pounded..
the way the crowd cheered..

In reality, it was just a few second.
In my slow motion replay, it goes much longer,
depends on the memory mode I choose.

Trilogy: Gaptek 2

"Okay, class. Masih inget kan minggu lalu kita sudah ngebahas tentang perkembangan teknologi komputer dan internet."
(I approach the OHP, handling my slide)

"Sebagaimana kalian tau, bahwa ngomongin internet ga lepas dari komputer. Bahkan kini komputer pun ga lengkap kalo ga ada fasilitas internet."
(They have brand new OHP. Looks nice. Looks sophisticated. Looks ow-please-God-help-me )

"Kalau kalian perhatikan, saat ini kita bisa mengirimkan gambar, lagu bahkan film lewat internet, yang sangat sulit dilakukan beberapa tahun lalu."
(uhmmm... how to turn this thing on?)

"Ini terjadi karena infrastruktur yang ada . ."
(switch the button? Done. How about this button? what the hell, just push. nothing happen. This button? Nope.)

". . kini terus dikembangkan dan semakin maju"
(calm...calm... don't show your confuseness. everything's gonna be fine. piece of cake!)

"Jadi hari ini kita . ."
(ouw! I pushed all button that this thing has. Huccome it wouldn't start?? help... mayday mayday!)

". . akan membahas tentang "Infrastruktur Komunikasi""
(usually, by the time I mention the topic of the day, the slide shows on the board. Taddaaaaaa... Tapi kali ini.. oh, well. Can't hide this confused look anymore.)

"Ada yang tau cara nyalain alat ini?"
(duh! dosen teknologi komunikasi nih? nyalain ohp aja ga bisa... *blushing*)

A student came forward, took the cable, put the socket into the wall. Tadddaaaa....
"Belum dicolokin, Bu...", he said, grinning.

Gubrakkkkkkkkk!!